Have u every been jus fed up and tired, lately I have been thinking to my self why am I chasing something that I know is out of the way something I know im not going to get any time soon, I put my standards of self pleaser high an it looks like there is nothing or no one out there that can please me, I don?ven know yow im jus tired of being tired I look at friends, family, just people over all and see there happiness an my lack of and keep wondering how and what do I need to do either to be a better person, girl friend, student or jus a friend and honestly I don?now, I don?now if its b/c I believe in or jus love my self too much to see anything that?rong.
I miss my friends and love all of them with every bit of my being but they have hurt me in ways I will never forget and some I cant even for give and (im a very forgiving person so u must know it hurt)but no matter what I will remember them and I will still love them (but jus try not to show it) I have learnt over this summer that when u give people a inch I don?ven know if its jus human nature but dem tek a mile I have been nice, try to please everyone (but ma self) do all I can do but nothing works everyone for get all the good and stick with the bad but yow at less I can say I tried . Man I don?ven know anymore where im going with this I jus had to say something to someone an seen as though im alone now your that someone to night sorry if this is a bit mixed up if u where a close friend u would know exactly what im talking about though. thankx 4 listening